I remember when I was a child playing war with plastic soldiers my friends would get mad waiting for me to arrange my battalions properly in straight lines before the battle started. Later on when at home preparing to do my homework I would spend time arranging my books in order, pencils and pens on one side, sharpener and calculator in another. Everything was set within my reach in the order that I would be using them. My older sister would sometimes come along and mess everything up just to make me mad and I would stop working just to set it up again.
It is something I fought against for many years but was never able to get rid of the order nuisance, like my mother called it. Believe it or not my teenage room was always in perfect order too, my clothes, cd's, shoes, everything had a specific place where it had to be. I never considered it a problem; it is a part of the way I am. My friends and family called me crazy and many times lost their patience waiting for everything to be just right. And then I went to the university and everything changed, all my classmates wanted to study with me, everyone wanted to work on their projects with me, from being the worst I became the best.
I studied industrial and electric engineering, we had lots of projects, terms and procedures to study and learn and not enough time to do it in. From the very beginning there was a difference between my classmates and myself, my compulsion turned into an asset. I worked on my projects fast and efficiently, I programmed my classes and study time perfectly and in the specific order my mind dictated. I graduated second in my class behind someone who was believed even crazier than I was. During the four years we were in the university we had the opportunity to work together several times and we were dynamite together. Today he is a consultant for NASA and I am a writer retired from engineering.
It is up to each one of us to accept special characteristics and eccentric ways of doing things that we have. It is up to each one of us to learn how to use them to our advantage. Most of the time it is much easier to find a way to use certain behaviors positively than trying to change them. In fact you may waste years trying to correct or change these behaviors and will never be able to do it. It does not matter what people think about you or your ways, what matters is what you think about yourself and what you do with what you have. The only way to be happy in life is first to be happy and satisfied with the way you are as a person, not what you do or how much you have but who you are.
It does not matter how old you are, what you do or what you want to do if at this point in your life you have not come to terms with yourself, now is the time to do. Everyone in the world has a reason to be in this world, in one way or another we are all part of a larger scheme, a larger picture. It is not fair to be unhappy with yourself, if you are; you will make those around you unhappy too. This is not fair; we each have our own problems and situations to resolve. Look at yourself, look at what is inside of you, accept who you are and be happy. You owe it to yourself and those who love and care for you.
Life is too short to waste it complaining or trying to change what you can not change. Embrace life and turn those potentially negative characteristics into great assets for your life and that of your family. Success and happiness are in your mind and heart, no one is going to give them to you, your destiny and your life are yours to accomplish. Each human being shares his or her life with others but the way you feel about yourself and the way you travel on this road called life is your choice and no one else's.